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Randzo
johannesburg, gauteng, South Africa
i am a fun loving, almost 25 year old who is tring to pin down this thing called life (but with some bad luck it keeps escaping me - the good stuff in life i mean). i laugh loud and cry hard. i love food and enjoy talking. i love meeting new people and hanging out. just started working so even that is something i'm tring to get used to.
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

....who cares....

how possiblw is it that your suppressed thoughts can one day all of a sudden come up and bite you in the butt?

i'm sitting at the office doing some file updating admin stuff and it suddently came to me that i have been going on and on with wanting to show Gary that i have moved on and am much happier (while of cause secretly wishing that he would brake down and tell me that he wants me back), and wanting him to realize what a grate chick i am and that he let go of gold when it all hit me that maybe he let go of me because he realized that i was boring and that from far i actually give off much more than what i really have.

i mean it just dosnt make sence as to how come all was fire hot and then just went to iced like over night?

you know when i would discribe our relationship i would tell my friends that it felt like it was mostly like lust because i would want to always be with him. he would touch me and literaly i would get goosbumps and my skin would tingle. he kissed me even lightly and it was an instant turn on.

could be that i smotherd him? did i not live up to his expectations?
was i a fantasy that became boring?

what?! why?! when?!

2 comments:

Seeking A Stylist said...

Men are wierd in their thinking. I've been in a couple of situations like this where you find yourself in doubt and constantly questioning. If this is the case, you should give him the time of day. If a man wants to be with you, he will show you and tell you. He really doesn't want to be with you. That should be enough to move on and find someone that does.

Randzo said...

hay SS.
thanks so much for that. its strange though because this is what i have always known but for some starnge reason could not bring myself to let go...