Guess who's back...

life is sweet...





i just came back from a week's leave and i gotta say that it was good to get out of the city for a while.





there are new things taking shape in my life and i'm loving the change.


i went away with a kinda-new friend and i must admit i felt a little wierd about taking her and being in her company for a whole week but yo the fun i had was price less.


we spoke, laughed, moaned (as in complain - so not what you are thinking) and we did all the stuff that girls do...





then at a moment when i thought that things could not get any better than this, my man (oh sounds good to say that) says those three words in that tummy knotting order. the words are "I" , "LOVE" and "YOU"


i promiss you, for what seemed like a life time, my world stopped and everything seemed ok. then well of cause, as with all othere things in my life, i started to panic and completetly came up with the craziest of reasons as to why he could have not meant what he just said....





as insane as it was, i had three friends try to knock some sense into me via phone calls, sms messages and physical contact. i mean i was on the verge of deleting his numbers and moving to Alaska or something...





im much better now and i have spoken to him recently and he said things that assured me of so many fears that i had bubbling up in the background.


he asked of me a very huge thing and even now im still trying to get used to it...

he asked me to please TRUST him



those of you who have been following my love woes will now that this is a huge deal for me. i feel so bad that he is the one that has to suffer the effects of a cirtan good for nothing, energy consumeing, uncaring idiot who failed in love and only succede in the ratlings and misfortunes of my love life.

i still haven't said anything back to him in the sence of those three words but i have this feeling that he understands even though we have not spoken about it.

what gets to me though is how the hell all this is going to play out on the 31st of December when the time for us to brake up comes... confused? well read this: HOW CRAZY IS THIS

Gotta get back to work... ciao