Your days are numberd

I have decided that since sitting here and stressing about this whole situation is not exactly making me any thinner, I will rock the man’s world just as much as mine has been rocked. I shall not wait for a time when it is convenient for him, I shall go ahead and be as inconsiderate as my heart pleases. Who the hell doe he think he is any way and why the hell should he go on and on all chirpy while I stress?????

I am so angry at him right now I could blow.

I'm just waiting now for a time when he will most probably be home for lunch and throw him with the most terrible of question ever for lunch time : do you still love me???
I have responses ready for either answer and even for if he asks to talk about it later. I will be firm and super mean on the phone and HE WILL CALL later or ELSE!!!!
Its enough now!

Ps: I do fully realize that this line of talking could result in me being single this December but hell so be it. If that’s what is meant to happen then oh so bring it on. I refuse to go through this summer with uncertainty and heart brake. I will be sad yes but relieved more.

Ok here it goes:
12:15 ring…ring…ring (no response) damn.

12:30 ring… ring…ring (still no response) eish.

Oh have no fear. I will find the man and I will turn his world upside down.
The way I see it and the way I'm feeling now, the man has two choices:

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  either he says he doesn’t want to be in this anymore, I give him hell and introduce him to irrational me who he has only heard about in my crazy stories and I ensure that he understands how far my reach goes then I let his sorry ass go while I realize that I was so out of his league anyway and that with out me his life will spiral into an empty existence.
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  Or he says he still wants to do this, he does still love me, I give him hell – tell him that he needs to shape up or not waist my time with little mood tantrums and attention seeking stunts. He will bring his part into this relationship because he promised that he would and will have to make a huge adjustment into most things. Then as a way forward addition, we will give each other a whole lot more space and try work on our friendship.
  

I am sick of this and I refuse to take any more of it…

12:45: ring ring ring… (nothing) now I'm even more pissed!!!!

(he is out there having fun in the sun while I worry and write damn blog posts about how much I hate him!!!)