Ramblings...

I seem to have picked up a rocking thing that I do whenever I think about him. It manages to make me feel better.
I wanna hurt him
I wanna hurt him way much more then he has hurt me all those times.
I feel like such an idiot.
Thinking that this time would be different for some strange reason. I feel so stupid for giving him another chance to hurt me. Mmmm I wonder if he planned it. Must have I mean for the first 6 months he does all that I want and need. He is extra nice, he calls, he buys me things and does the family thing then bam with no warning, no nothing he breaks my heart and all this after he had gotten me to sell my soul for him.
*to-and-fro*
Cant believe I fell for this again…
I must really be slow or something, I mean who gets their heart broken twice by the same person in the same manner.
He has to pay. I have to get him to pay again and again. Once and for all he has to pay.
I think I'm going to stab him