Why did he...?

These days it seems like my world is totally consumed and enveloped by this dude.

Last week he kissed me...

Idiot me kissed him back thinking well this could be it...

he has realised thet he made a mistake by braking up with me and wants to change that. maybe he dosn't know how to say it and he kissing me is his way of saying "girl i'm lost without you"

So you can imagin the smile on my face after that but at the same time carefull not to look like an idiot or show him that i was over the moon. So I didn't even bring it up... we both just carried on doing what we were doing before the kiss and later i went home.

24 hours later i was ready to climb the walls wondering why he hasn't said anything. I couldn't say anything because it went two ways: If i asked...

• and he said yeah the kiss ment something then grate for me cos i have the man i love back but didn't want to seem despret


• and he said no then i would be stuck with egg on my face and depressed like crazy plus it would show that i was eager to get him back...

But well me being me - i asked... It went a little like this:

ME: "Hay how are y doing?

HIM: I'm ok. so whats up...?

ME: um i was wondering... why the hell did u kiss me? What did that mean?

HIM: um (sigh) well thing is it wasn't supposed to happen um well thats how i feel. i don't know how you fell? um (sigh)

ME: (tring to sound as not hurt as possible) oh ok no i was just wondering. man i have been going crazy. oh ok if thats how you feel then ok...

HIM: how do u feel about it...

ME: does it matter i mean if you have already said that then i don't see the point... um listen um i gotta go...

HIM: oh ok...

ME: um i'll see u around... bye

click....

Then i curled up into a small ball and went into deep depression...

I mean how much more am i supposed to take? This guy clearly is messing with my feelings and the last thing i need is for him kissing me and saying it wasn't supposed to happen....

DAMN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!