The grass IS greener on the other side

i must say the the road to healing is an amazing one.

i look back now on a couple of weeks ago and i could have never known i would ever make it to where i am now. back then i could just see black with no cahnce of being happy real deep down. these days, whats important to me is to embrace all the things that mean the most to me. things such as family and friends. i have decided to make as much memories as possible and get this thing called my life moving...

i met a guy...
now i dont want to get too ahead of my self and go on about just how much i'm in love and cant imagin the rest of my life with out him but its a start. if there is something new that i have learned from the last time its that i should let everything happen at its own pace. i have a tendency to want to move things along and let them happen faster but that has only lead to things happening without intending to and that brings all these unsure things and later into a realization that this is not what we really want. SHO!!

look for all we know it could turn out to be nothing but if it were to become something... i think i would want to let him take full control with how things should go and make sure what it is that he is looking for.