What does the word betrayal mean to you...?

for the past two days i have been in an emotional hell and slowly but surely am finally packing my bags to leave that place.
i walk around in a constant sate of near tears and everytime i see an act of betrayal - weather it be on TV or in real life - i feel the tears well up. (i have even stoped wearing eye makeup for fear that i will end up looking like a freak).


i hate him... i hate so much it hurts. i just dont get it. is this how it feels to be cheeted on. i mean i feel like i have been because he said he still loves me. he kissed me...

How do we move from there to him likeing someone else. not only like but even making a move. is it not me that he likes. is it not me that he loves?