touching ground...

hello to yu all
i agree its been a while.

at one stage my life seemed to take off and never stopped and now finally, i have hit the ground in realizing that love, life and everything else is not as hunky-dorey as we would like to believe.
appart from the fact that my waight seems to be recruiting more fat to make an even tighter and bigger community, my love life has too started speaking a language i was not taught.

i dont know: what is it about men that makes them inapable of saying it when they hae issues or when something is bothering them. they go around saying that they are all good yet their actions speak an totaly diffrent thing...
he is doing that pull away thing again after i have told him in my most calmest voice that hate it with the biggest passion ever invented/felt for anything. i dont know...

today is our 4 month anivesary and things are awkward. when he gets in this state of mind i just dont know how it is that im supposed to react. i have decided and accepted yes that this is a part of him that im gonna have to live with. that every once in a while he will get into major shut off mode but question is: di i back off and give him space? do i ignore it and carry on as normarl? do i b**** and moan about it or do i simply just ... i dont know!!!! does he even realise that he does it?

hu!!!