when he tells me he loves me...

Finally!!

its not that i have been sitting around just waiting for this but sho it feels good to have it finally happend. last night.

it was more of a statment i must say. he said it in a way that sounded like it was the most ntural thing ever. it gave me a super good mood kick.

this time it feels diffrent. this time it feels good. i am loving every moment of re-falling in love with him.

look ok ok i admite not everything is all rosey onmy part. yes i am constantly freacking out and always on the look out for patterns of his past behaviers and even though i may say nothing to him, inside my own personal wars where i totaly freack out.

was i even sane to want to give this another shot?

was i just fooling myself for thinking that i could get over all the past things?

will it ever get to a stage where everything will be at an equal again?