Life Lesson

At a mere 20 (soon to be 21) i'm learning a whole lot as i move to make a mark on my planet. Some of these lessons come in a form thats very hard to swallow...

A while back i fell for the guy (Gary) that one of my best friends (Candice) was crazy about. To my secret plessure, the guy was crazy about me and i knew right then and there when he asked me out that there was no way i would say no. best friend? what best friend? she would understand...

Well she did and no sooner when he said he liked me, i was hooked on his arm with no chance of letting go ever.I could now take over the world. we made magic cause the attrection was unbelievable. I mean this was the first time ever that i felt so much for a guy in such a small space of time and i loved every minute of it. He would touch me and my skin would get goosebumps - thats how intense it was. Well at that time little did i know that he was going to teach me a damn amazing lesson - one that i would never forget.
I kept our relationship a secret from my other friends but Candice and well went through the emotions of wanting to share every moment with my girlfriends. I would talk to Candice none stop about him neglecting the fact that this was the man that she had here future set on. My thoughts went something like this:
"Well Candice said she was ok with us dating and why not take her word for it. Besides
she is the only one who knows about us - who else am i supposed to talk to?"
Now thinking back I wander what went through her mind when i discussed how he swept me off my feet with our first kiss and the many more kiss-a-thons that we had. It must have been hell but as a true grate friend she sat back and let me go on and on. Till that day finally came...

This guy dropped me just out of the blue and guess who is the first person i ran to.
I went ther feeling both ashamed and emarrased that i was going to someone who not so long ago i was willing to forget about just because of some guy. To make things even worse for the poor pathetic inner me, she welcomed me open arms and helped me throughthe emotions.

So now you tell me how the hell do i repay that kind of friendship hu? Here you have someone who totally put her feelings and happiness aside for me and even when it all blew up in my face never once turned around and say "You deserve it you b***h"

LIFE LESSON
When i call you my friend, that means that the very thing that i expect from you i should be willing to give selflessly - no side issues.
Friendship does run much deeper than most things and it is that kind that we need to hold on to.

I'm still looking for some way to let my girl know that i really do appriciate that.